The Serenity Prayer: Some Practical Applications

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The original and complete prayer

Yes, it is a Monday.  No, I will not be writing the usual Monday Meeting Miracles post.  I was unable to chair this morning’s meeting; instead, I attended a funeral.  More on that in a moment.

I’m thinking this post may have all the structure and logic of a long overdue phone call with an old friend… at the end of it you will have all the information, but the delivery may be a bit convoluted.  It’s been a while since I have written in this blog just for me.

First things first.  Actually, I have no idea which to put first… updates on my life, or the reason I am sitting down to write at all?  Here’s the quick and dirty synopsis:  life is a little bit chaotic right now.  I qualify with “a little bit” because I know plenty of people whose lives are perpetually more chaotic than mine, and in fact chaotic is a subjective feeling.  For me, chaotic means:  the usual rigamarole of winding down spring sports, which overlaps with the start of summer sports.  As a matter of fact, this is the first summer both kids have that overlap, so things are trickier than usual.  End of the year school stuff, which includes, but is not limited to, half-days and talent shows.  Finally, since the rest of the world has this same stuff, there is the family obligations, and fitting in their stuff as well (note to self:  Father’s Day is this weekend, need to get on the stick!).

All of this is routine, and I’m pretty sure I complain  write about this stuff every year.  But this year two additional things have conspired to add some more chatter to the monkey mind.  I alluded to both of these things in a recent post, might as well take time to write out about each in a little more detail:

I.  Dental woes

I have been experiencing some serious, and I mean seriously serious, dental issues.  Let me sum it up with this story:  I crack a tooth a few weeks ago, and it’s towards the front of the mouth, so I am forced to make this issue a priority so as not to look like an extra from the cast of Hee Haw.

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I go to the dentist, he takes a look around my mouth, and tells me the issues are more complicated than the cracked tooth, and that he needs to refer me to a specialist.  No stranger to dental problems, I ask, “Do you mean an endodontist?”  He says, “No, a prosthodontist.”  I actually had to go home and look up this word, since I had never heard it before.  Looking it up did little to reassure me, by the way, as they seem to specialize in replacing teeth, and I was obviously hoping to save this one.

Turns out, in my case anyway, going to the prosthodontist was the right call.  The regular dentist said no way was the tooth going to be saved, but the prosthodontist did exactly that.

But I’m getting ahead of myself, and I can already see I’m rambling too much.  The point of this whole story is that the entire situation is stressful.  For obvious reasons… who the heck enjoys cracking a tooth and needing to go to multiple dentists?  But as a person in recovery, the prospect of anxiety-producing and painful dental procedures are an extra source of concern.  Finally, the unknown cost of these “complicated dental issues” adds an extra layer of fear into the mix.

II.  Job Search

I can’t remember if I’ve written about this or not.  Again, trying to make a long story short, I have been looking for a job, and preparing myself mentally for the transition from being a stay at home mom for the past 16 years to being a working mom.  A job has presented itself, and the process has been a long and deadly slow one.  I submitted my resume in early February, for Pete’s sake!  Here’s the good news:  130 resumes were submitted for this job, and I was one of 9 interviewed.

Here’s the not-as-good news:  that was two weeks ago, and I’ve heard not a peep since.

Then again, it’s been a slow process thus far, so maybe it’s just continuing to go slow.

Time will obviously tell.  In the meantime, I doubt I have to write out the ways this process has been a stressful one.  It can and should have a post of its own, and, depending on the outcome of the process, it likely will.

That’s the long and short of what’s been going on with me.  None of which explains the title of the post, does it?

Yesterday I was speaking to my husband of a workplace challenge he is experiencing.  Not being a part of a workplace (yet, she says with her fingers crossed), I did not want to take a stab at having the answer, nor did I want to pooh-pooh the issue by giving some trite “You’ve got this!” cheer.  So I tell him what always works for me when I am faced with a complicated issue, and that is the serenity prayer.

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This is the abridged, more commonly known prayer

Hopefully this advice helps him.  More to the point of this particular post, it sure as hell helped me!

When was the last time I actually used the serenity prayer in my own life?  The fact that I can’t answer that question tells me all I need to know about my current level of serenity.  The trouble is, the loss of serenity is an erosion process… it starts small, with the occasional worry over the pace of the job selection process, but it gradually bleeds into every aspect of your life.

I worry about fixing my tooth, I worry about the upcoming dental bills, I worry if I get the job, I worry if I don’t get the job.  Pretty soon I’m worrying about things that have nothing to do with either.  Before I know it I’m thinking in patterns that I describe as Old Josie Thinking:  making everything about me, projecting my thoughts and feelings onto others, assuming I know better than everyone.

And that, my friends, is a slippery slope.

So the timing of this advice could not be better, which is the way things go, for the most part.

I had time to flesh this out on the way to the funeral this morning.  I was attending a service for the father of a friend and former co-worker.  I have not seen this friend in years, but thanks to the magic that is social media, I was alerted to the death, and felt compelled to attend.  During the drive, I became aware of nervous feelings, and I attempted to talk them out with myself.  Turns out, I was worried about issues that are decades old, and could not have been more preposterous.

It was at that moment the light bulb went on that illuminated Old Josie Thinking, and I flashed back to the conversation from yesterday about The Serenity Prayer.  So here’s the practical application:

Accepting things I cannot change:  things that happened close to 20 years ago certainly fall into this category, as do the thoughts and feelings of others (what other people think is none of my business)

Courage to change things I can:  paying my respects to a person who was an incredibly important part of my life, especially after so long an absence, takes courage

Wisdom to know the difference:  paying attention to my own advice (for once) is wise

So as not to make this already long post even longer, I can apply this prayer to both the dental issues and the job process as well (and both lean heavily in the accepting-that-which-I-cannot-change direction).

Whew!  When’s the last time I wrote this much?  There you have it… the life and times of me.  I will keep everyone up to date on the job process.  Either way, I will have a lot to process!

Today’s Miracle:

I’m going to have to go with taking the time to write out this post!

Adding a second miracle:  just got back from the talent show of my 7th grade son, who forbade me from attending (I compromised by sitting in the back where he hopefully did not see me).  Turns out, his act was a group of his friends flanking a special needs student and singing “You are My Sunshine”  I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo glad I did not listen to his order that I am banned, and now I wish I had thought to videotape!

 

 

 

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Posted on June 13, 2016, in Recovery. Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. You know, I was going to get serenity, courage wisdom tattooed on my arm at one point.
    I had forgotten about it.
    I desperately needed this today. I know serenity comes from acceptance of what is and relaxing.
    💗

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    • I would say that almost always, when I need that prayer, what I really need is the acceptance piece. As I sit here and ponder, any issue that is going on currently with me is in need of it. Which also tells me I am overdue for “Acceptance is the Answer” from the Big Book 🙂

      Glad I gave you what you needed today, Anne!

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  2. I’ve just realised how important it is for me to pay attention to the prayer myself at the moment.

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  3. Your son is awesome 🙂 So glad you were able to see his performance! I had no idea there was a longer version of the Serenity Prayer, it is beautiful. And, didn’t know there were “prosthodontists” (neither does my spell-check apparently) 😉

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    • My son is a surprise, that’s for sure. Here’s a follow-up to the story: he walks in the house that day, says, “Hey! You didn’t come to the talent show!” I say, “You told me you didn’t want me to come?” He had the decency to look chagrined, then said, “Yeah, well I thought about it, and decided I did want you to come.”

      Thank God I did not listen to him!

      As for the prosthodontist, my spell check did the same thing. Apparently they go to school for two years more, hence their specialized title (and I’m also deducing that’s their justification for the prices they charge as well).

      Finally, I LOVE the full version, and I’m so glad I got to share it with you, Lori! Obviously the condensed version is the one to use in a crisis (mainly because the other one is kind of long to memorize), but when you read the full version you can really see why AA adopted it and more or less made it their own!

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  4. Ginger Groundhog

    I too did not know the full version of this. Strangely enough I was given a gift of the Serenity prayer by a friend years ago (not sure why when I reflect back) but anyway it sat on a bookshelf and I would dust it off with all my other nic naks without paying too much attention. When I first decided to try a sober life I suddenly remembered I had this and placed it on my dresser so I see it every morning. Thank you for the long version of this prayer of course there is always the short version from Seinfeld “SERENITY NOW!!!!”

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  5. How sweet of those talent show kids! Yes I’m glad you went too. The serenity prayer is something I can apply to literally anything, yet I rarely do. It is ever helpful, always the right thing to do. I hope it helped your husband too.

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    • The applicability is incredible, as is my reluctance to apply it! Now that I’m reading this comment, I need to ask him if it helped, I know he said it on the first day. Likely he is the same as us, and forgetting about it by now!

      And thank you for remarking on the sweetness of the talent show. When you have a 13 year old boy, “sweet” is not a word you hear too often, so I will take it when get it 🙂

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  6. I pop serenity prayers like candy sometimes. I should pop them even more, even when things are going well.
    Anyway, sorry to hear about the tooth and the general mild mayhem of family life. I think just because everyone goes through life, doesn’t mean we can’t talk about it.

    Was thinking of you the other day and so glad this post popped up in my inbox!

    Blessings to you and the family 🙂

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    • As usual, Paul, you are an inspiration. I aspire to making the serenity prayer my next addiction!

      True story: just yesterday we were between games and we needed to eat at a convenience store (sandwich and chips). There are a gazillion choices of chips, and I spied Ruffles “All Dressed” chips on the shelf. I read the description, and that they are beloved by Canadians, thought of you, and bought them in your honor.

      And they were delicious!

      Just so you know… I think of you often, my friend 🙂

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