M(3), 2/1/16: Simple, But Not Easy
Today has been a strange day thus far, for reasons that would be entirely boring to recreate.
One disruption bears mentioning: as I was handing out books at the start of the meeting, the school nurse called with the report of a sick child. Fortunately, there were 13 able-bodied replacements to run the meeting, and off I went to the middle school. Since it turned out the most urgent thing my son needed was to sleep, and I had a family member at my house, I was lucky enough to go back and catch most of the meeting as a spectator.
This turned out to be a very good thing for me. Last week I attended a meeting on the anniversary of my sobriety, and it was one of those rare meetings that I left feeling worse than when I started. I had to take a close look at myself, and I worried that I was getting too big my britches. Could I only enjoy a meeting that I lead?
Fortunately that fear did not come to pass, as I enjoyed the meeting as much from the attendee seat as I do the chairperson’s chair. Today we read Bill’s Story from the book Alcoholics Anonymous. Bill W. is the co-founder of the 12 steps of recovery; this chapter in the book describes how AA came to be.
All who shared marvelled at the process by which Bill W. created the 12-step program. A rags to riches story (morally speaking rather than financial), Bill’s Story is captivating from start to finish. The story depicts more than any other in the book just what miracles can take place when you put your faith in a power greater than yourself.
The process that Bill developed, which later became the 12-step program so many of us use today as a blueprint for our sobriety, was fundamentally a simple one. And as he states himself,
Simple, but not easy; a price had to be paid. It meant destruction of self-centeredness. -pg. 14, Alcoholics Anonymous
Simple but not easy was the phrase that stood out to me in this morning’s reading. True for sobriety, true for so many other things in life. And when I consider the stumbling blocks to most anything standing between a goal I desire and me, self-centeredness is usually in the mix.
The simplest antidote to self-centeredness? Getting out of your head and into service. And the results of this simple but not easy process are nothing short of miraculous!
Too many from which to choose today… loyal meeting goers who pitch in to help, compassionate school employees, the health of my children, generous family members, living in such close proximity to the school and my meeting. Most important: I am here to comfort my son!
Posted on February 1, 2016, in Monday Meeting Miracles, Recovery and tagged 12 steps, AA, Addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholism, Big Book, Bill W, fellowship, God, Higher Power, Meeting, Miracle, Recovery, Sobriety, Twelve-Step Program. Bookmark the permalink. 9 Comments.