M(3), 9/28/15: Open-Mindedness

We are almost a whole week into the season of Fall, and, other than my home decor  and decreased sunlight, you would never know it in my area of the world.  I say if I can’t have the long summer days, then I don’t want the summer humidity!  Hopefully the rest of you are enjoying seasonal weather.

Today’s reading selection comes from the book As Bill Sees It, and the topic was “open-mindedness.”  I selected it because I have been struggling of late to cultivate this trait… with myself.  And I’m frustrated at how tedious and seemingly ineffective it is to try to change my own stubborn mind.  The last time I had to engage this kind of shift in perspective it took hitting an alcoholic bottom to do so.  I’m hoping that the wisdom gained in sobriety affords me the opportunity to develop the open-mindedness I need without the “benefit” of a personal low such as that!

So my sharing had to do with the broad concept of open-mindedness, but from my sharing the group took a decided turn towards open-mindedness as it relates to the belief in a Higher Power.

In fact, the next person to share after me revealed a multitude of points at which she finds herself stuck in developing a prayer life.  She has classified herself an agnostic for most of her adult life, so the concept of a Higher Power at all is a new one to her.  She finds it difficult to ascribe human qualities to an entity about which she is uncertain, so having a daily conversation makes little to no sense.

She has grown up with family that treated the God of their understanding as a Santa Claus God; if you ask nice enough you will get whatever you want.  But praying for anything stumps my friend; isn’t that reverting to self-will again?

From her disclosure, each person shared about his or her journey to spirituality, and all agreed that it is a journey rather than a destination.  Another prior agnostic said what appealed to him about the 12-step program is their refusal to define the term Higher Power.  Thirty six years later, he still refuses to define it.  But the benefits of following the simple suggestions of asking a Higher Power for help had immediate, practical results for him, and so he continues to keep it as simple as possible.  That simplicity has kept him sober and happy for a very long time.

Another long-timer, a clergyman by profession, admits to having a more conventional concept of God.  What he appreciates, however, and has deepened his spirituality, is sitting in the rooms of our 12-step program and hearing all the different constructs that people have in terms of their faith.  No matter which way you go about developing your relationship with a Higher Power, this gentleman believes the ultimate goal is self-transcendence:  getting out of our own heads, and developing a broader perspective.  However you get there is up to the individual.

Another attendee has a hard time sticking to one definition of a Higher Power, so for him it varies.  He has a picture of Christ in his car that brings him comfort, but he also feels God in nature.  He finds it simpler to not ask too deeply, because his experience was rather dramatic:  the first time he got down on his knees and asked to have the obsession to drink removed, it was removed.  In over 25 years, it has not returned.  So for him, there is surely a power greater than himself, because he could not quit drinking on his own.  The details simply don’t matter to him.

Another woman spoke of all the manifestations of prayer life she has been through in her many years of sobriety.  Come to think of it, most of the people who shared today have decades of sobriety.  This usually means they’re doing something right!  Anyway, this woman had a confusing childhood of mixed spiritual messages, then she disconnected completely from spirituality for the decades she drank.

So when she committed to getting sober through a 12-step program, she took every suggestion given to her, and the first was:  pray for sobriety!  At first, that was all she could do… start every morning asking God to keep her sober, then finishing each night with a thank you prayer for another sober day.  Over the years, she has tried all kinds of conventional prayers, and a variety of meditations; the format of her prayer life is an evolution.  But the one constant is that she asks God for help, and she remains as open as she can for the answer.  And she has found incredible answers over the years, from all sorts of unlikely sources.

I had to jump back in and second that notion.  I learned through this program that prayer is asking for God’s help, but meditation is listening for the answer.  So the notion of a “Santa Claus God” is something I engaged in for years… I would desperately ask for something, then become aggravated when I didn’t get exactly what I wanted in the time frame I wanted.

But in the application of both prayer and meditation, I too have found answers in unusual circumstances.  I may not always like the answer, and sometimes I wonder if in fact it is the answer, but the coincidences-that-are-not-coincidences happen too often to not be something greater than myself.  The trick, of course, is cultivating the open-mindedness to receive them!

So many other great moments, but this post is turning into a book, and I’m late for an appointment…

Today’s Miracle:

Finally, after 2 1/2 months, I am getting my hair done this afternoon.  Why I waited this long is anyone’s guess, but the skunk streak of gray is about to be banished from my head 🙂

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Posted on September 28, 2015, in Monday Meeting Miracles, Recovery and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 20 Comments.

  1. Sometimes I go literal. God made me in his image. So God is a fat middle aged white woman. But usually I go for Della Reece God, like in the book The Shack. Being held in a hug and being given good “girlfriend” advice. That’s my favorite. In my life my higher power has held many forms. It has always been a close walk with the father/mother, son & holy spirit. I can’t imagine what a struggle it must be for some who don’t have faith. What a brave topic. Lori

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  2. Hello from Minnesota!
    I so wish I could develop a deep faith.
    But with all the horrible things in the world done under name of God, it makes me sick.
    I just don’t know how to figure it out.
    I can only believe that I can ask for help from my “higher self”.
    I haven’t been able to pray at all, even though my wonderful sponsor gently encourages me!
    xo
    Wendy

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    • You are describing an issue very similar to that of my friend in the meeting. Like everything else, I imagine it’s a process, and I bet you are further along now than when you started! Just imagining a higher self is progress, right?

      And as we know… progress not perfection!

      I will say some prayers for you, Wendy! And I hope Minnesota is experiencing beautiful fall weather. It is still humid as all get out in Pennsylvania, but I guess it’s because of Tropical Storm Joaquim. This too shall pass 🙂

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  3. Yes! I needed this today.
    I felt myself take a turn towards close minded ness and judgemental ness this weekend. Part of it about myself!!!

    This helped me so much!
    Thank you

    Ps
    I always book my next appointment before I leave the hairdresser. Sometimes pre planning is a good thing!

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  4. Wow, I never thought about it, but I grew up in a “Santa Claus God” environment too. Still struggling with the open-mindedness myself. Great post 🙂

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    • Thanks Lori. And boy oh boy did I use the Santa Claus God in active addiction… please, please PLEASE get me out of this mess, I’ll never drink again!!! Sigh.

      I am pretty sure open-mindedness will be a life-long journey, at least for me 🙂

      Thanks for the comment, Lori!

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  5. Late to the meeting, sorry. LOL.
    How did the hair turn out?
    When I read this I see all the places I still struggle. So, if I believe it’s all a miracle or none of it’s a miracle, then that answer still applies. Those ‘things’ (situations/reactions/resistances) are in my life for me to use them. I need to see what those ‘things’ are saying to me. They are the signs. I need to stop looking for a stone table and start looking for the simplest solution. Regarding step 11: Spend one minute in the morning with a word of your choice i.e. Harmony. I spend 60 seconds with ‘harmony’ … a committed 60 seconds. I will feel different! Guaranteed! And if I don’t feel different I didn’t spend the time. WE have to rewire the old belief system and that takes a measure of energy (force/commitment) on our part. The more frequently we do the task the better and faster our brain gets as seeing it as the simplest solution to “all our problems.” Anyway, got a little coachy here, but this stuff works. Sixty seconds will become 120 seconds. 120 glorious seconds to feel love. What could be better than that! Heck, maybe we could take the 60 seconds and do it every hour …. wait let’s not get too ahead of our self. ♥
    Love you darling.
    Me

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    • The jury’s out on the hair… I went dark, to honor the season, and I keep getting scared when I look in the mirror! Going out to lunch with old friends today, we’ll see their reaction before I decide if I run screaming back to the hairdresser for some highlights 🙂

      I love, love, LOVE this reply. And with your permission I will copy it and print it out for my friend to read. I truly believe it will benefit her!

      As an aside, I am working diligently on myself, though offline. And often as I do I think of the various lessons you’ve taught me. The biggest one is… the behavior I repeat that seems so detrimental is really giving me something, and the trick is to figure out what that gift it. This lesson has come up often in the past 6 months, and I think of you and smile every time I receive it 🙂

      Anyway, I hope you are well. As I tell people “live,” you are never late to my meeting!

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  6. thank you so much to take the time out to write this ‘

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  7. Oh, Josie. I love starting the week with your words. Thank you!
    Psst: I got my hair done last week, too…after 8 weeks of waiting. It has purple highlights now. Can you say “midlife crisis?”
    Have a wonderful Autumn week, my friend!

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