‘Cause I Gotta Have Faith!

Faith isn’t the ability to believe long and far into the misty future. It’s simply taking God at His Word and taking the next step. –Joni Eareckson Tada

I’ve had several experiences this week dealing with the issue of faith.

Incident #1:

I was sitting with my sponsee working on the 12 steps.  After asking about her belief in God, she replied, “I do believe in God, and I believe in AA, but I guess I have a hard time accepting the idea that simply praying every day, and sitting in AA meetings is going to cure me.  I don’t really understand how it works.”

Incident #2:

I was sitting in Mass last night as my daughter was receiving the sacrament of Confirmation.  I looked up at skylight in the church’s ceiling, and saw a white bird looking into the church.  As I did a double take (because the dove, a white bird, is the symbol of this sacrament), the bird flew away.  The rest of Mass I was trying to come up with alternate reasons why that bird would have been up there, checking out the ceremony.

Incident #3:

This morning at my home group meeting, the topic was about how to tackle the 12-step program when you consider yourself agnostic.  A newcomer to the meeting talked about how envious she was of people who had a belief in God.  She was born and raised in Japan, and therefore her religious upbringing made it difficult for her to grasp the concept of a higher power (these are her words, I have no knowledge of Japanese culture and how it relates to spirituality).  After this statement, she talked for quite some time, and unknowingly referenced multiple ways she does believe in a power greater than herself (one example is her belief in Karma, but there were several other references).


I believe that we can over think the whole spirituality business.  For me, I had a basic belief in God when I started my recovery… I believed in God, but took no further action with that belief (unless you count foxhole prayers like, “God, if you get me out of this mess, I will never do wrong again” a type of action).  I had the same reservations that my sponsee did.  How can sitting with a group of drunks relieve you of the obsession to drink?  It made no sense, but I had run out of options, so prayer and AA were my only alternatives.

As time had moved on, my faith in both God and AA has grown exponentially, and here I am using the word faith deliberately.  Because I have no real answer to my sponsee’s question, I’m not sure there is a definitive answer.  But as they say in the rooms, “I came, I came to, and then I came to believe.”  Days, weeks, and months of cultivating a relationship with God, days, weeks and months of immersing myself in the Fellowship, has made me a believer.  And the best part?  There is always room for growth, room for improvement, room for deepening my faith.  The more you work at it, the better it gets.  You just have to take that proverbial leap!

Today’s Miracle:

Having the clarity to connect the dots in my life!

Posted on March 15, 2013, in Recovery and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. Another beautiful post. For starters, I think it’s incredibly hard to begin having faith in something that feels brand-new in thought, and secondly, it’s even doubly difficult to have faith in something that you perceive has failed you. You bring up some interesting points. Just when I felt I was over thinking the post you wrote those exact words. I love it. It always to strength to go with your intuition rather than ignore it.


  2. Great post…loved the image of the bird watching the ceremony. I had to start with belief, and then that belief blossomed into faith. So that’s why we don’t talk about coming to have faith, but coming to believe…even a tiny sliver of belief is all that is needed to move on. I think we all get hung up on the first three steps a bit much – I know I was when I was starting to work with others. We do read the material, but I don’t dwell if someone already believes in God or a HP. I haven’t had a sponsee yet who hasn’t, but of course now that I have typed that, I will get a slew of them…lol.

    Faith is a powerful thing…*very* powerful and while it doesn’t “cure” us, it does take the obsession away as we pour ourselves into growing that faith and living spiritual principles.

    Thanks for the lovely post 🙂



  3. I love this! Faith is such a powerful concept. I was a lot like you when I first entered the program. I believed in God, but only acknowledged Him when I really needed something – go figure! Once I actually opened myself up and invited Him in, I have seen so many miracles in my own life as well as others. Sometimes, the faith of a new tomorrow is all I need to get me through the day. For me, faith has been pivotal to me letting go of control over my life and accepting God’s plan. Thanks for this post!


  4. i love the theme of this post. For me, “faith” is doing “as if”. My sponsor taught me that if i’m super fearful, for example, to act as though i’m NOT afraid and soon enough i’ll come around for real. That kind of trust that i’ll come around is a kind of “faith” for me. 🙂


  5. Faith – belief that changes behavior


  6. Reblogged this on Wholeheartedness and commented:
    Well said. The title makes me think of this George Michael song…


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