It’s Easier to Stay Sober than it is to Get Sober
You don’t drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there. -Unknown
I have an update from Monday’s post that I would like to share. I wrote about an issue I was having, where thoughts about past misdeeds were coming up with increasing regularity, and causing me some mental distress. I received some wonderful feedback, and I really appreciate the insights given to me.
Later that same afternoon, I connected with a friend from the AA Fellowship. She and I had been playing phone tag all day, but we finally connected late in the afternoon. I thought she was calling me with an update about a mutual friend who is ill; in fact, she was calling for something completely different: she had relapsed the night before, and was desperate to connect with someone who understood. As she conveyed the details of the events, it was truly like the pieces of the puzzle falling into place for me. All those feelings I have been experiencing, which for me, thank God, were as a result of events that took place more than a year ago, she is experiencing, right now, in the moment, and she is paralyzed by them. For me it was a true God moment, one that I recognized right in the midst of the phone call.
So all those feelings did two things for me: first, I was able to relate to her in a very meaningful way. She would tell a detail of her day, and I could give her a time in my life where I was in the exact same situation. This may sound like a case of “misery loving company” but it is not… it helps to know someone else has walked your path. Further, I could show, through my example, how to get out of that mess of feelings and come out on the other side.
Second, and more important, it gave me an answer to why these feelings may be resurfacing… I don’t ever, ever, want to feel that pain again. Like anything else (losing weight, fitness routine, smoking cessation), it is so much easier to maintain sobriety than it is to achieve it.
And you know what? Those feelings that I wrote about, the ones that came about at least daily, if not several times daily? They have not come back since that phone call. Odd, or God?
Looking forward to preparing a delicious dinner for my baby brother tonight. Now, maybe I should start figuring out what I’m going to serve!
Posted on March 13, 2013, in Recovery and tagged 12 steps, AA, Addiction, God, Health, Higher Power, Monday, Recovery, Smoking cessation, Sobriety, Substance Abuse, United States. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.