I Had A Dream (A Drunk Dream)
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It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live. -J.K. Rowling
For those who do not understand the expression, a drunk dream occurs when a person in recovery dreams about drinking, and wakes up with the physical feelings of having done so.
My dream, in the cold light of day, is actually pretty funny. I was sharing one of those single serving bottles of wine with a friend with whom I used to work. This is funny, because, while drinking, I would have been annoyed to share a regular size bottle of wine.
I woke up abruptly, which cut the dream off, but when I climbed out of bed I felt a little light-headed, and it all came back into focus. When I examined the dream, what bothered me most was that I didn’t seem at all bothered with the fact that I just gave up my sobriety. In the dream, I more or less rationalized that I hadn’t drunk that much, and I was focused on other issues (which would make no sense if I tried to write them out, just jumbled dream stuff). As soon as I remembered the dream, I was horrified, why wasn’t I upset in the dream? Why didn’t I feel remorse?
For those in recovery, drunk dreams are not unusual, and we are given the tools to deal with them as they happen. First, I got down on my knees and thanked God that it was only a dream. I then walked down the stairs and told my husband about it, and how I felt. Finally, I went to the first meeting I could, I raised my hand as soon as it was time to share, and I told a group of like-minded people what had happened, and how I felt about it. And, predictably, by the time I left the meeting, I was at peace.
My son’s “Valentine Dream” come to life (see yesterday’s miracle)!
Posted on February 13, 2013, in Recovery and tagged Addiction, Alcohol intoxication, Alcoholics Anonymous, Dream, Dream Sharing, God, Lightheadedness, Martin Luther King, psychology, Recovery, Sobriety, Social Sciences. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.