…It Ain’t Just a River in Egypt…
The thing about denial is that it doesn’t feel like denial when it’s going on. -Georgina Kleege
It seems to be the time of year for this subject, because I have been hearing a lot about it. And who can blame someone? Holiday parties, egg nog, champagne toasts, wine spritzers, cookie exchange invitations that also require a bottle of wine… it can be difficult to picture a Merry Christmas without the merriment of alcohol. So, in honor of the holiday, here is the top 10 list of denials I have either used personally, or have heard about in meetings:
1. I’m really not that bad, because I haven’t… (fill in the blank: gotten a DUI, overdosed, gone to rehab, etc.)
2. Yeah, I probably shouldn’t drink, but what’s wrong with smoking a little pot? (switch substances as needed)
3. I’m a grown-ass man (or woman), I’ll do what I want!
4. I will just cut back, and drink like normal people (or, I’ll just pace myself, or I’ll drink water in between drinks, this list could go on forever).
5. I’ll stop AFTER the holidays, because, really, who would quit before?!?
6. I will stop drinking (or using) if you will just get off my back.
7. How can I not drink when all my friends (or family, or co-workers) drink?
8. I would stop drinking if I could just eliminate the stress of… (fill in the blank: job, spouse, kids, finances, almost anything could be inserted)
9. If you had the (spouse, kids, family, job) I do, you would drink like me too.
10. And my own personal favorite, one I used for months on end… I will absolutely stop this insanity TOMORROW…
The real problem with denial is why I used the quote at the top… the deeper you are in it, the less likely to see it for what it is… an excuse to avoid the pain of change. People in denial truly believe the lies they are telling (believe me, I speak from experience).
Here’s what I’m grateful to know today: there is no problem I have that a drink or drug won’t make worse. Once I decide to use a substance to solve a problem, I’ve just increased my burden exponentially. I thank God I don’t have to live like that anymore!
Posted on December 19, 2012, in Recovery and tagged AA, Addiction, Alcoholism, Christmas, Christmas and holiday season, Denial, Drinking water, Eggnog, Health, Holiday, Merry Christmas, Recovery. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.