From the day you’re born ’til you ride the hearse, ain’t nothin’ so bad that it couldn’t get worse. -Unknown
Miniconfession: I wanted to make sure I had not used the title of this post previously, so I was just reading through some of my earlier posts, and I chuckled out loud at some of them. Am I appreciating myself, or am I being self-indulgent? You be the judge…
So I titled this post very deliberately, because at no point in time do I want to mislead any reader of this blog: I live a charmed life. I mean it, I am incredibly blessed. And I say that with full knowledge that I have the incurable, progressive, fatal disease called addiction, I am still conscious of how beautiful my life is.
Now, having said that, life can still be challenging, frustrating, disappointing, monotonous. Just because I have all these blessings does not mean that I don’t still want to whine and complain when my expectations do not come to pass, or when I am frustrated by the actions of others, or just simply because! I do my best to “practice these principles in all my affairs,” but because I am still human I will often fall short of the mark. The frequent response I hear when I complain is “think of how much worse it could be.” That a situation can be worse is a given; if you have a situation, you are alive, so there is always a lower bottom. That line of reasoning, while intended to soothe, frequently has the opposite effect on me, and riles me up even more. Most times, for me, a simple validation of my feelings would do the trick.
Now, having used up my quota for whining and complaining, time to let it go! Because while it is okay for me to feel disappointed, frustrated, disheartened, it is not okay to waste my day wallowing in it. If I wallow in it, I will make it bigger than it is, and lose sight that anything with which I am dealing is nothing more than a privilege problem!
Posted on November 16, 2012, in Recovery and tagged 12 steps, AA, Addiction, issues, life, Maryland, Mini, Organizations, Philosophy, Posts By State, problems, Recovery, United States, Veterans. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.