The Courage of Honesty

You are you.  Now, isn’t that pleasant? –Dr. Seuss

Sometimes the answer to the question in the quote above is yes, and sometimes, especially after looking back at past mistakes, the answer is a resounding NO!!!  Fortunately, more often than not these days, the answer is a positive one.

Okay, so I am officially through my fourth step, which means I have completed a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself.  Sound scary?  Yes, indeed!  I feel good for having accomplished it, but nothing miraculous happened to me yet, other than feeling proud of myself the way I do when I complete any project.

The most interesting part of the whole experience was noting the patterns that emerge in my behavior.  It seems at the heart of it, lack of honesty is my biggest problem with respect to the harm I have caused others.  Believing that people will discover the real me and run as fast as their feet will take them seems to be at the heart of my dishonestly (geez, even writing that was difficult).

Logic would follow that having the courage to truly be myself seems to be the ultimate goal, and, hopefully, the ultimate reward.  Without realizing it I have been working towards this goal for the past 243 days.  And this is just one more thing where it is all about the journey, rather than the destination… progress and not perfection!

Posted on September 29, 2012, in Recovery and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. What a brave post! Congratulations on completing step 4….your movement forward and toward peace in your life continues to inspire. Love you!


  2. An admirable and confrontational task. Your rewards are forthcoming. You have opened a place inside you that will never be closed again. I love your journey. L


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