Step Study Homework Assignment
Last night was my fifth session with Ann, who is taking me through the 12 steps in my recovery program. I have been given my first writing assignment. Multi-tasker that I am (or some might call it lazy), I figured I would combine my homework with today’s post. So here it is:
I am not a visual person, so I don’t “picture” God when I am praying. Rather, God for me is more conceptual… He is a power greater than myself, greater than any human being, greater than anything I can even imagine, so to try to put a face on something I cannot comprehend seems silly. I believe this power is everywhere in the universe, but in particular He exists in every human being; therefore, the God of my understanding is within me at all times.
The way I make conscious contact with this Higher Power is by calming my mind as best I can, thanking Him for all the blessings I have in my life, asking for the things I need, and attempting as best I can to listen to what He is telling me. He responds to me in many ways… He is the quiet voice in my head that, when I listen, brings me peace, He helps me to observe signs that I used to call “coincidences” but now know was God showing Himself, He provides countless blessings that bring joy to my life, and, when I experience pain, I believe He is helping me to learn and grow from it.
The listening part can be the most challenging. The best analogy I can come up with is this… have you ever had to deal with a small child that is sick with fever, is also hungry, and needs his/her diaper changed? That child is inconsolable, and until his/her needs are addressed, cannot be soothed. That is what I feel like I was to God… I was so distracted by my own self-created problems, so disconnected from Him, that my life became completely chaotic. The more chaotic my life became, the less I was able to calm myself and listen to what God was telling me to do. Luckily, the situation has reversed, and my life has come into a wonderful balance. And I have faith that the more connected I am to God, the better my life will become.
Have you ever really thought about your concept of God? How would you describe Him, or Her, or It? I bet you will be amazed by the thought process, I know I was!
Posted on September 11, 2012, in Recovery and tagged AA, Addiction, Christianity, God, Higher Power, Homework, Human, Recovery, Religion & Spirituality, Sobriety, Twelve-Step Program. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.