More Will Be Revealed
When I first started writing this blog, I talked about the basic things I have to do every day to maintain my sobriety, namely:
2. Go to meetings
3. Talk with someone in recovery, and, most importantly,
4. Not to use any mind-altering substances.
I have written more than once that I feel like I should be doing more, yet I have been told time and again to simply take direction and “more will be revealed.” It made little sense to me, but I did as I was told, and now I have 115 days clean and sober, which in and of itself is miraculous.
But still, me being me, I often wonder, but what about the steps? And isn’t there something more I can be doing? And when I get those thoughts, I simply remind myself that what I am doing is working, and not to mess with success.
And now, I think I understand a little more about the expression “more will be revealed.” For the last week or so, I have been thinking that I should be sharing more at meetings. For the last few months, I have occasionally shared, but I mostly listened at meetings. I operated under the assumption that I have more to gain from hearing from another alcoholic that from them hearing from me. But still, the thought that I need to give back in the form of sharing my experience has not left, and each day, the voice gets a little louder. But still, I have resisted the thought, falling back into the safer path of just sitting and listening rather than opening up to the group.
So, today, for no apparent reason, I chose to read a passage from one of my meditation books. There was genuinely no real reason I did so, as I do not open this book on any kind of regular basis. And today’s passage was entirely about the value of sharing at meetings, why it is so important to open up about what is going on in your life, how it helps you, and, more importantly, how it can help someone who may be struggling.
Anyone that believes God does not speak to you on a daily basis is simply not listening closely enough!