Glass Half Full
I have come to appreciate the many blessings of recovery, even in these early days. At the absolute top of the list of is the unbelievable love and support I have received from my family and friends. I will not say that I couldn’t have made it through the last two months without them, because I have met many people who have recovered from addiction with no love and support. But what it did provide was comfort and security, and a hope that life will improve if I just keep my recovery first and foremost in my life.
And it is absolutely amazing how quickly life can improve. Here is the best example I can provide. A little over two months ago, I was deposited on my Mother’s doorstep and left there like a bag of unwanted clothing. I literally had nothing else with me but the clothes on my back, and now my Mother has to figure out what to do with her 42-year-old screw-up of a daughter. Fast forward to present day, I am on the phone with her (because in this span of time I am back living with my family and no longer a burden on her), and my Mom tells me that spending the last two months with me has been one of the greatest joys of her life. Now, if that is not a miracle, I don’t know what is. She had every right to be resentful towards me for the rest of her life, I wouldn’t have judged her one bit. But instead, she provided me with the comfort and security that only a mother can, and now she can appreciate the silver lining in the cloud of my addiction… growing even closer than we already were, and watching me progress to being the best daughter I can be. As for me, there simply are no words to describe the feeling of pride that hearing those words brought. I will remember that day for the rest of my life.
So I guess my point today is no matter how dire the circumstances of life are, there is almost always another way to look at it, another perspective to take, that will help ease the burden. It may take a little time, and it almost certainly will take mental effort, but the payoff… better peace of mind… is most certainly worth it.